behind every successful man is a cursed amulet and a mass grave of goat carcasses
art gallery???? buhh not for me. i like looking at the pictures on the food at the super market
I’ve been reflecting on how I’ve changed as a person over the last few years and I feel like I’m unrecognisable in a lot of ways. Me two years ago wouldn’t even dream of the person that I am now.
I know it sounds ridiculous but there are so many things I would have never thought I could do that I’m doing.
I’m really bummed I didn’t get to compete over the weekend; I keep thinking things like “if only I had started working on my strength earlier” and “if only I trained more/was more naturally adept at it” but ultimately, I can’t change that the stars didn’t align for this comp.
I am hoping for the next one. I have a lot to prove to myself through it… and I have a lot to prove to others. I need to prove I can step into an uncomfortable situation and own it.
I have a long way to go but I am really proud of what I’ve done so far. Most of the time I feel like I’m stagnating but I guess this is to remind myself that I’m not the person I was when I walked into the gym two years ago and I owe it to myself to make the hard work I have put in worth it.
The only other thing I need to remember is that it is always hard and through struggle character is formed. I would never trade the suffering, tears and mental challenges for anything. I can’t wait to put myself to the test and face my challenges head on.